I need a coffee.
I’d like a cigarette
I wouldn’t say no to a drink
Lol Wednesday and Thursday night I sleep for 11 and 12 hours respectively. And I had a nap in my car at mid day yesterday. I can’t stand wasting so much of my life. What is wrong with me seriously????
I feel weird. I feel weird. I’m not very happy. Last night was the best I’ve had in a while, it was an escape. I felt separate, in a happy beautiful bubble. And now I feel like I’ve returned to a reality that can’t compete. My life is a cycle of “you just gotta get through this week” & wasted weekends repeated for infinity. Odd happy days are just glitches in this horrible paradox.
All I am writing about on this blog is how miserable I am right now. I try to think of other, interesting things, but there’s nothing. I’m boring and empty at the moment. My blood results came back negative, so there is no physical reason for me to feel like this. It’s all in my head and I’d give anything to get out of my head.
Also, do anyone know the Boston Crisis Team number? I’ve lost it and think I need to talk to them…
the hypersomnolence is coming back (did it ever go away?). I just want to be avle to think straight
Day one of new llife free from toxins:
fine. drank tea instead of coffee. drank lots of water. ate good food. spent about 2 hours in a semi dissociated state and self harms a bit tonight. I’m really considering buying a strapless dress but it’s quite expensive (ie, over £20 and not in the sale!). Felt really sick after tea tonight so I had a lie down.